It is a challenge to put into words all the emotions swirling like the Tides within my chest. For once I can write that they are all my own. 

I sit atop our bed in the Captain's quarters of the Maralyn and I am not alone. Castien is out on the main deck speaking with Finn, yet still I am not alone. For I am with child. 

Joy and terror have collided within me like ships in the night. I am so incredibly happy, yet in fear of losing the gift we've been given. 

Castien is the same. His vow to protect those he loves grew stronger when we realized the source of my illness. I worry what lengths he will go to in order to keep us safe while on this perilous journey. 

But I have hope. It guides me like a compass on the most trying of days. 

One day soon, we shall live in peace. Perhaps we will have to fight for it, but that will make it all the more valuable in the end.